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Everything I Long For (20th Anniversary Edition)

by Hayden Desser

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Nostro Melancholy drenched goodness. Not possible to pick a fav track, but the heartfelt chosen track is a dark romance akin in strength Hospital (Modern Lovers) in its 'first 'love gone wrong nature.
However, perhaps 'We don't mind' is a better representation of the artist & first time listener. Favorite track: My Parent's House.
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[Coughs] Girl of my dreams Things are as bad as they seem She is only sixteen *changed to “She is only 23” for live performances That's why she's only a dream Woman of my dreams Lives right down my street Has a daughter who's sixteen That's why she's only a dream What do I do this for Got to get out some more Go down to the grocery store Meet someone I'll adore Someone who'll make me laugh Someone to be my better half Keep me warm under the sack Share with me my midnight snack Job of my dreams Things are as bad as they seem Working where I did at fourteen Making less pay it seems What do I do this for Got to get out some more Go down to the grocery store Meet someone I'll adore Someone who'll make me laugh Someone to be my better half Keep me warm under the sack Share with me my midnight snack House of my dreams Things are as bad as they seem My parents' house I'll stay for free Till I'm at least 43
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In September 02:37
I don't need to, take this shit from you I don't want you, calling me up at two Just to tell me that some guy you met who While at a party, told you that he loved you And I don't need to know this, need to know this And I don't wanna know this, wanna know this Tell me the way they are with you Tell me exactly what they do Things that you say don't need to prove That what I have is much to lose And I don't need to, take this shit from you And I don't want you, calling me up at two Just to tell me, that some guy you met who While at a party came just looking at you And we never should have said that, in September We shouldn't go away but stay together Tell me the way to be with you Tell me exactly what to do Things that you say don't need to prove That what I have is love for you For you For you
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It was a Tuesday morn in November I slept at your house the night before We couldn't wait to get up to go for A big breakfast in an old fashioned diner A full meal six coffee refills later We both have to be at work in an hour Let's call in sick i suggest to her I'll call your boss and tell her that you're under The weather, you'll call mine, you will tell her That I'm very sick and that You're my mother So we walk down the street Looking for a phone booth we Rehearse what we're going to say So that we can have this day Away... We find a phone booth with room for two I call your boss and i don't speak the truth They're pretty mad about you but they'll get through You call my work in my mother's voice They believe you And it starts to rain outside In our phone booth we hide It doesn't let up until 5 Squished together we don't mind We don't mind...
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Tragedy 03:56
Broken bottle won't hurt me Nothing worse than I have dreamed Gunshot in my chest you'll leave I can take that, you will see Late at night is when I dream Horrible things are what I see Hard for me to believe I wake up and I want free Car crash highway tragedy Nothing worse than I have dreamed Loss of my best friend I grieve I can take that, you will see Late at night is when I dream Horrible things are what I see Hard for me to believe I wake up and I want free
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Stem 01:47
I bought a rose To give to you A windy day The petals flew From the stem To the street I tried to catch them With my feet I got to your door You looked to see Through the people Right at me You let me in And I just froze I gave you a stem That was a rose... That was a rose
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Skates 07:17
When I was younger, a part-time job worker Department store centre, I saw a man enter He was middle-aged, deep lines on his face Tight mouth and eyes glazed Eyelids just half-raised And I looked at him, he looked at me He looked so sad, I had to see What did he want, what could it be What had he been through before me seeing him In the store I worked for that year, that year Ice skates he asked for, In the middle of summer He wanted a good pair, the price he did not care I looked for his size, our best pair he tried Custom back and sides, excitement in his eyes I asked are you a pro, he looked sad and said no These skates are my last hope Without them i cannot cope And he said my wife, she drowned this summer Behind our house, the river took her I cannot swim, I need to find her I will wait till it freezes over And then I will skate, as far as it takes I will skate as far as it takes, to bring her back home To bring her back home, to bring her back home Back home
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I'm To Blame 02:24
I considered your letter I understood your questions I'm wasting away I've gone astray Take me away I know what you'll say I'm to blame Didn't want change Things can't stay the same way Come get me, I'm ready My minds changed Will you take me? I'm wasting Away I've gone astray Take Me away I know what you'll say
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Instrumental
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Driveway 04:19
Baby on the drive Time is almost five Laundry basket I Sit in while Lee tries To tell me I should know Tell me I would grow Sticking fourteen stones Gently up my nose So I shoved one up Until it got stuck Five more then I'm done Playing with Lee's no fun Dad came out the front door and he saw Only Lee sticking a rock Up his nose while I just watched Dad chased him around the block Dad caught him real quick Then he gave him shit Hospital by six His nose the doctors fixed I sit on the drive Waiting till they arrive Nose is full inside Trying to stay alive Lee was too scared to tell dad how many Stones up my nose no one says Till one day a bleeding face Stone falls from my nose they say They say
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Hardly 04:13
Could I be the one thing Missing from your life And from your everyday? I need you to be beside me Why don't you call me and we'll see? I see you having coffee You are almost beside me Laughing with your friends I tell Lorraine to look at you I tell her I need to tell you I don't know you But I want to I just can't leave here Without telling you -- Just how lonely I've been lately You are just as lonely, maybe? We should go out for some coffee I wonder how I can Give you my phone number And not be so afraid? I ask Lorraine to give it to you When I go to the washroom I return to the table I look, but I'm unable To find you anywhere I ask Lorraine to look for you I tell her I need to tell you Don't know you But I want to I just can't leave here Without telling you -- Just how lonely I've been lately You are just as lonely, maybe? We should go out for some coffee On the way out the door Lorraine lets me know that she went up to you And gave you my number and said 'call him or else he'll be sad.' And I waited, for two weeks and I realized that you'd never call me How could I have been so stupid I should have gone up to you and Told you myself how you make me feel
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Analyzed, thought it over too much Criticize myself way too much I will utilize the energy I have left To say goodbye To you and I will survive Cause I lost what I once found in you Take your smoke Coughing choking, there is no hope Take your records away I hate folk Pack your bags and don't forget your coat It's cold outside, but you'll survive Cause I lost what I once found in you
12.
I wake up Beside you, in mom's car I try to get you out You're strapped to the backseat I am too The car is rolling into water Why are we Strapped to our seats Trapped What did we do? I cleaned my room just as she asked me to Filling up, dirty water My chin's up, going under You're still asleep, baby brother I'll wake you up when this is over The car is rolling into water Why are we Strapped to our seats Trapped What did we do? I brushed my teeth just as she asked me to This is it, baby brother One more breath together We're almost under water Where is mom? I miss her The car has rolled into the water Why are we dying in this way What did we do? I was nice to him Her boyfriend, this is stupid When people come to search the lake We'll be found in our pajamas They will see A big mistake is all that this must be
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Time, time when you stayed over We stayed in bed forever The mail piled at the door Time, we lost track of the hours Pizza boxes tower The floor beside the bed Time, our bodies sore from something It surely wasn't walking Our friends thought we were dead And I can't recreate those times we used to have Without you they'll be bad Let's meet next month at my parent's house they'll be Away like they were then Away like we were then Time, you met someone new Someone who likes you Not like I liked you Time, you ask him if he'll mind Of course he'll surely mind So just leave him for me And will you meet me and we'll try to set things right I want things to be right And I bet we'll stay in bed for days and never leave I never want to leave We never have to leave
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Lounging 04:35
Why do I Stay up till three Lounging, eating, watching tv? I promised you I promised you That was through Why do I Sleep in so late? I wish sleeping wasn't So great I promised you I promised you That was through
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released April 1, 2016

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Hayden Desser Toronto, Ontario

For over 20 years, Hayden Desser has been making music on his own terms and on his own schedule. The three-time JUNO nominee has produced, engineered and mixed most of his records at home, creating a world of his own, exploring themes ranging from love lost and found to bear maulings and home invasions. ... more

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